18 posts tagged “personal”

Oh My God! I feel so stupid!!! I just realise that my DVD player can play Region 2 DVDs which means that I can now watch Arashi's DVD without using my laptop! How can I be so stupid??? I was just trying my luck when suddenly "J-STORM" appeared on my TV screen, followed by "Arashi Time - Kotoba no Chikara".

KYAAAA!!! Then WHY the hell didn't I pre-order the All the Best CLIPS????????

BAKA~~~~

BAKA,BAKA, BAKA~~~~

I had a fantastic dream last night. I was at Arashi's concert, sitting at the arena seats, with the boys dancing at least 10m away from me. If only it will come true. I want to go back Tokyo but at the same time, I don't think that it is such a good idea to travel at this time with all the swine flu going on. Furthermore, my best friend is not able to make it for a trip this year. Guess it will be next year then.. haiz... sometime I feel lonely yet I always put up a front in front of others, saying that going out alone is peaceful. Yeah, sure it is peaceful but yet it still feel so lonely. It has been such a long time since I feel this way. I guess with all my failed friendships, I am afraid to make other friends. The recent ones who I actually let them in were J and Nodame. Somehow, I feel that with them, I am able to open up more.

Certain times I feel that I am better off without them but then sometimes I miss their jokes and company. The other day when I walked alone on the streets of Orchard Road, I reminise the times where we always hang out after school or during the weekends wandering on that same streets.

I wonder whether they ever think about me. My old friends, N and H. They are my first friends in my poly years yet with his presence, it all fell apart. I miss the three of us hanging out.

But I guess some people are not meant to stay friends.

Ok..what a lame title..but can't think of anything else. I just had one of the bad days. Or shall I call it the unlucky day? Docchi?

I had to put what happen today into words. This morning I was all geared up for a hunt for Mother's Day present since it falls this Sunday, a fact that I had forgotten till last Wednesday. Anyway, I took half day off to find the perfect gift. I confidently told J about my plans. I believe my exact words were "I will go to City Hall first to withdraw money then head to HMV to find my DVD. After that I shall go to Bugis to go Kino to buy magazines and find my mum's present there. And I have to do all these by 4pm since my mother won't be back until that time". How could I possibly know that I screw myself up on such simple thing.

Withdraw money? Check. Buy DVD? Check. Go to Kino? Check. Found a present for Mummy? Check. By the time I did all that, it was only 2.30pm. Nice... Perfect plan. But what I realise, after planning of having a nap while waiting for the present to be gift wrapped, was that I had forgotten my house keys!!!! I was at loss of what to do. And I can't go window-shopping anymore because I can't carry around a 24-piece dinner set while window shopping. It is so damn heavy!!! Tried to cry out S.O.S to my sister but that pain-in-the-ass was out with her friends and my dad is at work. Tried to call my best friend but she didn't pick up the phone. So I am left with the option of waiting for my mum at the void deck of my block.

While in the taxi, my dear AHOMIYA returned back my call and started to make fun of my situation. Ok...so it is a bit funny. At least she made me feel a bit better. So she accompanied me on the phone. After talking for, like, half an hour, I realise that my handphone battery is very low so I told her "eh my phone is very low in batt. Call you back later. Need to save it to call my mum." Right after I hang up the phone, MY HANDPHONE DIED ON ME!!!

So I can't call and I can't go back home. The next 40 minutes of waiting for my mother was excruciating. I was all sweaty and stuff since it was a pretty hot day and I have no choice but to leave everything in God's hands. I am not even sure whether my mother will be walking from that direction or not. But luckily she did.

She looked so surprised seeing me with that big gift box. Everything is such a disaster!! My surprise is ruin!!! And I hate it when that happens.

I think this is the part where dAiba's mum will say "This is life"....yeah....In life, shit happens. And this is one of it.

This has got to be one of the best movies that I had watched so far. Lol!! It was so FUNNY!!! I love Matsuyama Kenichi's acting in here. It was so convincing~~ Lol!! Love Love Love his "run" as a geeky person and when he put on the costume as the death metal rocker, AWESOME!!! Nodame and I were laughing our asses off all the time. I really recommend everyone to watch it, though the songs are a bit crude (but who cares?)

Anyway, I couldn't sleep for the past two days because I was too worried about my AAA 2008. Lol! I know that this is one of the consequences of choosing Play-Asia instead of CDJapan or Amazon. I really couldn't contain my excitement anymore!!! I was so sleepy at work... Yesterday Arriane asked me "What time you sleep? You look so tired". I said "12 o'clock". "But why are you still so tired??" "Because I kept waking up in the middle of the night as I was too worried on when my DVD will arrived". Lol!!

Really...I was so worried that for the past two days I kept going home on time just so I can check my mail box. Haiz... I hope it will arrive tomorrow so that I am able to watch it at night, with my penlight on. Lol~~ Major fangirl. And I even DREAM about it!!!

My first full Arashi dream involves them having a concert at the Singapore National Stadium. I couldn't go (I have no idea why) but it was shown live on TV!!! Apparently in my dream, there were fireworks at the last part of the concert so  I took pictures of the fireworks from my kitchen window. Then after the whole fireworks thingy, I went inside my room to wait for my DVD to arrive (this is the part where it gets retarded).

This is probably one of the most memorable dream that I ever had. Haha!! I am so obsessed in the DVD and Arashi that I even brought it into my dreams..

DVD...please arrive a bit faster....ONEGAISHIMASU!!~~~

Oh anyway, yesterday was the 26 March, which means that it was Mao-chan's University Graduation Ceremony. She was so pretty with her green kimono (?) And she totally looks like Mayu from the Boku Kimi's manga. Kyaaaa~~ And recently, I've been watching some interview shows with Okada Masaki. I even rewatched some of Hana Kimi's episodes. He looks so cute~~~ Lol!! And he is only, what, 19? 20? I love his smiles. I am sure that he will make an awesome Takuma. Ooooohhh I really cannot wait to watch this movie.

Why didn't I revise my Jap Language more often?? Hazukassshhhiiiii~~ I was stammering when talking to my aunt's Japanese friend, who by the way is a very nice lady. But towards the end, I just gave up. Lol!! I really need to study all of it back again. Haiz...talking to her makes me feel like going to Japan yet again this year. And she even offered to buy for me Arashi's concert ticket if I am going there. Kore wa yabai yo~~ Lol!!

Oooh..by the way, I had just created Facebook account since my friends told me about this game called Pet Society or something.... I think I might get addicted to it coz I tried quite a bit just now....right before my laptop shut down by itself. Idiot...I am afraid that my laptop might just died on me anytime.. And I STILL have not backed up my things yet.

Anyway, tomorrow is 25th ne? Arashi Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo release date ne? Haiz... I am sure my copy will take quite a while since I pre-ordered it from Play-Asia. But saw that some have already gotten their copy. :( I don't want to be spoilt!~~~~ I really, really, REALLY hoped that it will arrived on Friday so that I can watch it on Saturday, with my full concert gear! Lol!~~

Oh god~~ I am so sleepy right now....*yawn widely*.... but I am still watching the HnA episode where they went to the haunted hospital. Gonna sleep soon...I am so tired recently...must be the stress at work..

Oooh.. I am now addicted to the song 'Setsuna' by Greeeen after hearing it from my local radio station last night. Love that kind of music..Maybe I should listen to other songs by them.

Last weekend, I just slacked (or shall I say rotting) at home and start to re-watch First Kiss. After watching it the second time, somehow I can appreciate it a bit more. Like the reason why she is being annoying and pissed everyone. Then after watching that, I searched on Okada Masaki, her co-star in Boku Kimi, at Veoh. Watched 2 of his interviews. Okaaayyy... so I find him kind of cute. No...REALLY cute. He is really tall. Though I can't understand why he wore that kind of outfit in the Oshierism interview. I really want to see how Mao-chan and him looks together. In fact, I can't wait for the movie... Why must it show in Japan in autumn? Will I have enough $$$$ to go to Japan by then?? Lol~ Fat chance. I want to read more of Boku Kimi. Why???!! Oh why isn't there any update for the subbed manga or even the raw ones? And if I could find it in Kino here in SG, I am sure it is going to cost a lot. I mean, the Hanadan's last manga cost almost twice the price here than when I bought it in Tokyo.

Oh yeah...my aunt's Japanese friend is coming over this Wednesday. And I asked her to buy some magazines for me. Too bad I can't ask her to buy me even more as I know Jun's The Television will be out this Wed. :( Oh and the shitty thing is, this Saturday I have to come back for some testing of system. My supervisor told me that it will be from 9am to 3pm but instead, now they say it will be from 2 pm instead. Freaking shiitttt.. there goes my weekend. And Sunday I had to go to my cousin's wedding.. Urgh!!! No personal/slacking/rotting time for me this weekend.

Hehehe! I read up my past entries in my livejournal and can't help thinking that my old self was so pathetically mentally unstable which is so different than how I am now. All the setbacks that I faced then couldn't be compared to what I am having now. Those times are the probably the worst times that I had in my life. I am so glad that I am handling things better now. Somehow it gave me the strength to go on and overcome my fears at my workplace although I know that it won't be easy. I guess it does give me a boost on my depleting confidence in my own strength.

Anyway, this was what I wrote back in March 10th 2006:

"I had fallen in love with another~ This time is a Japanese guy. Matsumoto Jun from Arashi/Hana Yori Dango. So KAWAII!!! Haiz..he is like the perfect man I want. Tall, stylish, kawaii and he loves Harry Potter, like me! How I wish there is another guy out there for me who is almost like him. So am I over my guy friend? Hell yeah! 
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Haha! So those that mean that as of yesterday, it has been three years since I loved a person named Matsumoto Jun?? Lol~ Uwah~ It does seem like a long time ago ne? Lol! I remember getting totally crazy over the Arashi fandom back in early 2007 - the start of the fangirl me! Lol~

Since I have been feeling a bit better reading up my old posts, I watched some of Arashi's videos again. First it was Happiness, then it was Kitto Daijoubu, Love So Sweet, Pikanchi Double and lastly Believe. I don't why I teared up everytime I heard the part "bokura wa zutto matteru" though I heard Believe on repeat mode at work for the whole day. So weird...in my opinion, it is as if they are saying that they have been waiting for the time when they are at the top, which I think they are now.

Haiz..watching their videos will always make me have this thought: I am so glad to be an Arashi fan.

Somehow I sounded like Aiba there! :D

oooh and it seems that filming for Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu is starting! Yeah! Waiting for Autumn for it to be released~ But before that, ganbatte Mao-chan!!

I finally, FINALLY manage to watch Bloody Monday and I only have one word to describe it..."WOW!!" I SOOOOOOOO Love the story.. It is exactly my favourite type of action drama. There is not a single one part where I go *borrrriiinngggg*. Every single time I was like on the edge of my seat, anticipating the next move by either of the group. Very, very interesting. However, I was expecting the ending to be even more action-packed. But I have to settle for it since that is how reality is, ne? But I am really hoping for a sequel or a movie. Whichever will do.

Oh...by the way, I just catch Believe's performance in Utaban during lunch time. It was SUPER AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! I love the choregraphy very much. And their dance steps....woah...I thought Step and Go/truth were very good but this is much better...And seems that they are selling well. Yokatta ne Arashi-san? Also, I just pre-ordered my DVD (thanks to Arriane!) Now I can't wait for THAT to arrive.

Man...today was the lousiest day for me in 2009. My superiors kept irritate the shit out of me. Fine, I know I am now holding more responsibility but f*** it lah, I am not a robot. They kept asking me to do this and that yet they did not teach me correctly and I kept making changes to the spreadsheets or retype my renewal notices. So damn pissed today... I wonder how long I can handle doing it.

I went to watch Slumdog Millionaire yesterday. It was freaking awesome... I can really see why it won the Best Picture award. The whole show is wonderfully done and I really like how it all ends. Kudos to that... As usual, I went out with my movie buddy, Nodame. I would definitely feel very lonely without her around since her contract will end tomorrow and it doesn't seem that the company is extending it as there is a staff freeze going on in my company. :( I am missing her already. There won't be anyone at work who I can talk to about Arashi and fangirling (she kept denying the fact that she is fangirling with me).

Anyway, did minna see the short version of Believe PV? OH MY GODDD!!!!! Aiba and Sho are so SEXXXXYYYYYYY!!! What happen to Jun anyway? With that hair...and that clothes. Gosh when he had his solo, I had to cringe a little as he reminded me of a waiter with bad hair day. Lol!! But then no matter what, he is still my ichiban and I STILL go 'kyyyyAAAA' (silently since I was at work when I watch it) when Jun goes [It's a brand new world]. But really, Aiba and Sho steal the thunder. I L.O.V.E what Aiba wear. The checkered shirt and that wristband...and the hair... Perfect package. And Sho...I love how he gave that sexy look at the beginning of the PV. Ooooh...I sense that I am going to make a lot of snapshot and turn it into my office wallpaper. Really now with all the Yatterman promotions going on, Sho looks totally gorgeous that I had to stop myself from appearing like an idiot with an open mouth at work. Lol~

Oh yeah..this weekend Arashi will be releasing their calender right? The one that I have been waiting for....(ooohh sounds like Believe's [bokura wa zutto matteru]...lol) But somehow...I don't think I will like it that much. It looks a bit weird.....like some circus show or something. I wish I had gotten last year's one where they were wearing those suits..(right?) Arashi + suits really turn me on! lol! Too bad that it was sold out at the Johnny's shop that I went last year...

Ooh..speaking of which, I better get Arriane to pre-order my AAA 2008 DVD for me. I have made up my mind. I am getting it from Play-Asia as it is cheaper since there is no shipping fee charged..though I had to wait a little later for it to reach me. Yay!! I can't wait for it. Luckily it is releasing next month so I didn't really have to wait  THAT long like I did with Hanadan's DVD.

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This was what my workstation looed like two weeks ago. Full of files and papers all around.

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My computer with pink,blue and black screens for my office programme. Ooohh...just notice that 2 weeks ago, I had my Arashi's Beaautiful Days as my wallpaper.. Just changed it just now for the 2nd time in two weeks! The beach scene in HYDF. Lol! I really am tempted to stick all of my Arashi's photos but then I am afraid some people might 'abuse' them.

Man...sorry for the randomness...I am still waiting for iTunes to sync music to my iPod. I solemnly swear I do not know how to use. Lol!!

Oohh totally forgot to vox about my new iPod. :D I just bought it yesterday with my hard-earned $$$$$$. The one where I earned by working OT in January for 47 HOURS!!! Damn I feel such a workaholic. Oh well at least this month I did not spend too much time at work. I really don't want to waste all my free time at work. How sad can that be...

P.S. My computer is super slow!!~~ I just notice that I have 900+ songs in it. Lol~ I guess that explains the slowness huh?